The Vision: Journal of JaVae' Graham
Right, so while I’m sure many of you could care less about whatever is on my mind, I’m not putting it on here for your benefit or your entertainment. This is more of an exercise to help myself out, simply because I have issues. Airing them out can help me solve them. While I really don’t care for an opinion, it would be helpful nonetheless if you decided to put input, whether positive or negative. In this series of journal entries, I’m just going to talk about random things that come to mind. Recently, a common theme that seems to be going around me is…Drum roll please…DUN DUN DUN
ANGUH AND HATE!!!!: Chapter 1
As I’ve stated earlier, I have a great many issues and the anger part just so happens to be one of them. A great many of the important people in my life have told me that I need to target whatever it is that makes me angry and crush it. Sadly, if that were the case, then I’d be sent to jail for genocide, because half the human population would be dead (LOL…Not funny.) I think what makes me angry more than anything is my hatred for people who do bad, evil, terrible things, despite the fact that they know it’s wrong. I know what some of you may be thinking. “JaVae’, now that’s not fair. Some people don’t know any better.” Well firstly, I didn’t ask you. Secondly, that’s quite simply a lie.
I have this, perhaps twisted belief (You be the judge of it) that people are raised with a sense of what’s right and wrong. They may come up with their parents teaching them these things, or if not, they could have been taught by some idol like…Barney the difference between right and wrong. Whatever the case may be, they see examples everywhere. Yet I can’t see WHY they continue to do the wrong things. Don’t get me wrong, I can be quite guilty of this at times. Maybe my dislike for these people is some form of self-hate. I dislike when I do things to disappoint my parents or people I look up to and when I see it in others, it gives me this strong feeling of dislike.
I think the question is, what drives people to do these things? Personally, peer pressure is out of the question for me, because none of my peers have enough control over my life to make me do something that I know in my heart is wrong, unless of course some outside force is tempting me to agree with them. PERSONALLY…I think it’s human impulse that drives people to go wild n’ crazy. It’s this kind of force of nature that makes you want to bend rules, simply because they’re there. A force that makes you want to cut loose and experience the freedom of doing whatever it is you want to do.
So maybe…Just maybe…My hatred isn’t towards humans and their ignorant behavior. Maybe it’s my hatred of human weakness to this evil force that’s inside of all of us.
Underlying issue of this chapter:
Maybe I can’t be so hypocritical in judging others in such a way until I have found some kind of way to conquer the weakness in myself.
Eh…I guess that makes sense. If it doesn’t make sense to you, then I don’t care. If you read above, you’ll find that this is for me to look back on anyway. lol
Peace until next time.
